The first guided meditation is called “No Final Answer”, based on an article I wrote called ‘Meta Buddhist Inquiry‘.

The idea of this guided meditation came from my experience of the meditation app, Insight Timer. I’ve listened to many guided meditations on the app, and recordings in the music section. I have also submitted a couple of my own chant-music meditations. What I noticed—and what anyone could not help but notice—is that nearly all the meditations and musical pieces hosted on Insight Timer are designed to do one basic thing: calm and relax the listener. They are designed to bring about states of relaxation, bliss, self-love, relieve depression and anxiety, provide psychological support and encouragement. All good stuff.

But then I thought: this is just another digital bubble, another way to soothe and protect the practitioner from the stress of the modern world and existential anxiety. But is that really ‘waking up’? What if ‘waking up’ is actually an experience of anxiety and angst, like a sudden cold slap in the face from reality? Instead of being blissed out, what if ‘waking up’ were actually and experience of being disturbed by reality?

So I started to imagine what such a ‘waking up’ would sound and feel like as a meditation. I decided to do a series of guided meditations whose purpose was not to soothe the listener into a state of bliss, but to actually, though subtly, disturb the listener into a state of existential angst. “No Final Answer” is my first attempt.