This would be the hard lesson, a child learned, from the pursuits of first-place her/his parents made her/him chase, gladly, however, s/he had, encountered this earlier in life, and, we can only hope, that s/he doesn’t pass this sort of bullshitting values down onto her/his own young…translated..

Although I’d won first place, everybody believed I was crying out of joy, actually, I’d felt, overcome with sorrow.

It’d felt, so empty, in this moment of glory………

So, this, is the pursuits of the parents’ “honors”, so to speak, the parents, making their young live out their childhood incapability (b/c they weren’t able to always get that first-place trophy???), and now, as the awards came, the child is left, feeling empty and void, but it’s a good lesson that the child had learned, and, hopefully, s/he carries this understanding, and NOT force her/his own young in the future, to earn that first place trophy too.