I love you, too much, so much it hurts, not having you in my life, I’d, lost you, a long, long, long, long, long (5 longs that oughta be, long enough???) ago.

Thought this grief from losing you had, finally left me, but no, it’d, come back every now and then, and it’s, hittin’ me, real hard right now!

I love you, too much, and I know, that I can’t have you, my love, and it’s for the sake of keeping you from this HELL of a world that’s been, imposed onto my younger self, although I know, you’ll, grow up (yeah uh, we’re talking about a DEAD NINE year old child by March of this brand new year here!!!), to be all right…

I love you, too much, and I’d, explained why I couldn’t have you love, in that vision (and no, it still wasn’t from using a PSYCHEDELLIC drug, nor was “she” a HALLUCINATION that I’d had!!!) I had, very long ago, when you’d, cried and begged me to have you, and I’d told you that I couldn’t, because I need to, protect you, remember???

I love you too much, and despite how much it’ll, keep on hurting, every now and then (try ONCE every month, and if I’m lucky, I get to, skip a couple of month of this, cycle of SADNESS & loss I’m currently experiencing right now!), but, after I’d cried, I ALWAYS (‘cuz I won’t let it get me down forever!!!) get BACK up, and RUN like the wind again!

I love you too much, do you not feel it, inside this, broken heart of mine, that beats and breaks, for only you, my love???